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Image Source On the evening of October 11, 2016 at around 7 pm, I was about take my evening bath and plan to sleep early when my phone rang. I answered it and it was my mom. She told me that my dad was having problem breathing. I was panicking when I asked her, "Where is dad now?  What is he doing?". She replied, "He is sleeping now but I am scared". I said, "Okay, wait for me and I'll be there in a few minutes."  I hurriedly went to my car and I made all the necessary preparations to rush my dad to the hospital. When I reached my parents' house, the door was locked unfortunately I left my keys somewhere in my house. My mom who is already weak due to old age and because of her Parkinson's Disease, slowly reached for her own keys and went outside the house with her walker so she can open the gate for me. It really broke my heart watching her as she struggled to walk towards me, but I waited patiently. As soon as she opened the gate, I h...

I can honestly say that I am far better now as compared six month ago. Last October 11, 2016, was the most unforgettable day in my life so far. I took a leave from work that day so I can attend to some important matters in my house which was under renovation. We were constructing an additional bedroom for my parents. My parents were already at their mid-70's and they were staying in our ancestral house a few kilometers from my place. I've been living separately from them for almost twelve years. But in 2013, I got into an accident resulting to a bone surgery. Since I am living a single life, I had no choice but to stay in my parents house for more than three months. Before the accident, I had no knowledge of the condition of my parents. I knew they were already old and already suffering from some sort of sickness. My dad was already taking maintenance for his hypertension and diabetes while my mom was diagnosed with Parkinson's disease. It never crossed my mind that both...

Source Its been more than three months since my father passed away, honestly I still carry the pain of his death inside me. His death left a deep hole inside my heart and no matter how hard I try to move on with my life the deeper that hole gets. There was no day since he died that I never cried. For his memories always bring tears in my eyes. I believe this pain will stay with me forever for his memories are permanently embedded in my heart and mind. I am fine with it, because his memories are worth the pain. My dad was not a perfect father, but for me he was the best. He was my shield, my sword, and my strength. When I was young and until the day he died, just a mere sight of him made me feel secured. I considered him as my fortress who protected me from all the agonies of this life. Now that he is gone, I feel I have no more armor to face this world. It is like I am all alone in this battleground, fighting a war all by myself. Good thing he taught me how to be a strong wa...

Photo by A.R.Villamejor A few minutes from now, the remains of a good friend will be laid to rest and will forever leave this world . I am sad because my friend's death reminds me that our life in this world is not forever and time will come that we have to leave this life unexpectedly like that of my dear friend. I am scared because I realized that death is inevitable, we cannot avoid it and no matter how how hard we cling on to our comfortable life, death will one day snatch us away from the people we love and take away from us the hard-earned fortune, fame and earth-made goodies without any warning. Though I am perfectly aware that life in this world is not permanent, the unexpected death of my friend only fortified my fear of dying. My friend Zsa-zsa , who just turned 36 early this year, died a few hours after she gave birth to her third son. Zsa-zsa is a very strong and determined person, there is always a smile in her face even in times of adversities. I got ...

I want to say goodbye before I die for I may no longer see the morning sun. I may no longer see the warm rays of the daylight as it touches my face in the crack of dawn. I may no longer hear the song of the birds as they play in the branches of an acacia tree. I may no longer see this tree as it sways when the wind blows on its chest. I will miss the falling autumn leaves while I walked in the mossed pavement of my patch. I will miss the smell of the air after a misty rain. I will miss every raindrop that touches my lips. And I will miss every breath of this life. I will no longer see the moon that shines at night as well as the stars that stare in my eyes. The sweet morning dew in the palm of the leaves and the warm fog that embraces me. Before I die, I want to touch the clouds and follow the end of the rainbow. I want to swim the greatest lakes and the seven seas. I want to listen to the song of a waterfall. I want to hear the tranquility of a tamed river. I want to c...

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